mummy , want this ;(

seriously , i fall for this one
the colour specially
mom, can i have one
dad, plzz plzz ;(

ohh DEAR abdul rashid bin abu bakar

for the last and everytime SAYANGSS
i LOVE you
only youu
no matter how much i mad at u
no matter how much i hate u (4 certain time laa kan )
to youu my love is eternityy ( tak faham ? aku jep faham . sibukk kaw ! )

jadi
tak kesah la ape aku tuliss
ape yang aku tak puas atyy
aku takan bole cakap depan2
sampai bile2 pon cam2 (mby klu da kawen tak kot, pasal tiap2 mase t aku ngadap kaw)
;)
but juz wait k sayangg
one day,
i will talk to youu face to face
tunggu la mase
lu wat lawak
lu tak siyes
wa sepak lu lajulaju

xoxo
you beloved GGURL

why is it hurt to heart u ?

sometimes it HURT
salah siapa ? bila aku cakap masing2 tanak berubah . kaw cakap , klu berubah , dah tak kenal diri masing2 la .
tapii..
is it wrong to change 4 some1 we love in ORDER to make the relationship more happier , meaningful and whatsoever
i noe , it's wrong to NOT to accept everything but , is it wrong too if i said , plz change a bit . that 10% of ur attitude .

i love u
yes i do
but sometimes love juz not enough
im sorry
for things that i have done
for things that i will repeat
and everything that hurts u
coz it hurt me too ;(

sunday

too much noise . boringg . dunno what to do . bgn2 da tecangok depan pc . haitt ! tak sabar pule nak tunggu waktu2 bz .

keje ? tak faham . kang wat salah . kawan ? sume tade . tggalkan aku . bf ? ntah la labuu .

pagipagibute

slept at 3a.m . woke up at 7.45a.m . yeah !

jom g register !

;)

die add myspace aku !

ape motif anda add myspace saye ? perlu saya appv ? then what ?
nk tnye ? nak serang ? nak marah ? nak ungkit ?
cite la betahun . da tade pape ag . habuk sebesar kuman pon tade dahh .

fyi ; i noe u happy .
n i noe im happy (even though not intend to telling u )
but .
appv la gak .
bak kate kiki . OLD STORY
haa
;)

new sem means last sem

baru baru !
finally final !
;)
:(
haa , mane 1 nk rase ,
jawab weyy jawab

the words can lie , but not the faces

i juz read a friend blog , he said that . keep on smiling , fake it , n no one will know the truth about it . is it true ? fake is all that matter ? i tried, but i cant . my words can lie, but not my face . the truth is written directly .

do i have to go through this all over again for the third time ? frustrated , am i being the 'owg ketiga' or some1 in the middle ? honestly , i do like u . who's not ? but the term of LIKE n LOVE u is juz as a friend . but the way u treat me is juz not fair . it hurts . but why ? sebab aku ganas ? kasar ? tp tak cam die kan , lembut , manje , cantik . so im disqualified already ? u push me away juz like that . what am i to you ? a girl ? a women ? a friend ? a mayb juz some1 that u can minx pijam bahu ? dun say u never did it , coz u never realize . im the one who face it , im the one who feels it . u asked me once rite ? i do mad , i do jeles , juz becoz the way u treat her n me . its ur choice to like her , i have nothing to do with it , or to "NOT AGREEING"

emm . but plzz dun get me wrong . this is juz me . this is my thought . PROVE me if im WRONG . plzz . im begging u . i dun wanna get hurt again , juz like what happened to the THOSE DAYS.

xoxo sed

u wanna GAME ? i give u game . it isnt OVER yet !

aku tawu aku salah . aku tawu gurauan aku sangat2 melampau . 2 hak kaw tok marah mengamuk . dan what ? kaw ngan aku da tade kene mgene ? kaw yang nak cam2 kan ? OK . aku terima . aku akan jalani ape yang kaw mule kan . kaw tak kenal aku lagi ? fine .

ye aty aku menangis . sakit . tu yang kaw nak tawu kan ? tapi kali ni air mata aku takan mengalir lagi . aku da berusaha tok bercakap ngan kaw . tapi kaw tak penah nk bagi peluang . dan terus dgn kata kasar yang selama ni kaw tak pernah keluar kan . permainan ape yang kaw nak aku main ? kaw cakap dah GAME OVER ? then wat la cam btol2 game over . bia aku MERANA . kaw suke kan ?

dan sekarang . dipersilakan la pertontonkan hidup aku tanpa kaw . aku takan cakap ia hebat , atau pun merana . sbb aku tak pernah terpk kan pon sume 2 . janji kaw ? janji aku ? simpan jep la dalam poket . dan mulai ari ni . i will play in ur game . n looks who's gonna WIN !

si anak yatim

start my day wit ; kepenatan yang teramat la sangat . n kelakar . td g la present , haa . terpancul mulut aku g cakp konsep TROJAN . haa . tergelak2 , mampus kene hambur . sebenanye konsep soul of nature , tp ntah ek . pasal tatw nk cakap ape . mula2 da cakap kat haz , haz da gelak dlu . ape la nasib . nk wat acane . saye bukan dak D . mane la pandai nk pk design . sedehh kan ? kekdang jeles nenok kawan yg lain . jeles bukan dengki , tp kenape la kite taleh pk cam dowg . emm . ;(

pas kelas g makan kat a&w . sory la sir fariq TERponteng kelas sir lak . nga sedap2 makan , terpndang la kat meje bulat . budak umor dalam 7,8 tahun . pakai songkok . simpang beg , comel n chubby . sedang asyik dok tulis2 . dalam aty da agak , mesty nk minx derma . n bile die dtg depan , alalala comel nye pipi die , 'saye anak yatim , bole minx derma' time 2 tuhan je la tawu hati ni. bayang kan nga sedap2 mom buger , otak cam2 soklan pk , dak ni da makan ke , tak penat ke . n camne anak2 yatim yg lain ? dowg dapat makan ke . time 2 gak aku nagis . nga makan ni , idung da merah . teringat adek2 kat umah . teringat permintaan kite kat mak ayah . dowg ? nk minx kat sape ?

n pk2 alik . nape la budak sekecil 2 di suwoh minx derma . atleast pk la inisiatif lain . pity him , kecik2 da tade mak ayah .

ya allah , kaw lindungi anak2 yatim sedunia .
kaw berkati la mereke , dan ampukan dosa2 mereke
kaw tenang kan hati dan perasaan mereke
moga2 mereke tabah menjalani hidup ni .
AMIN !

yg mgkin mmbace , amin kan ye

wa da cakap kan

siyes pale da sakit sangat . wa da cakap kan wahai pale . lu tlg la jgn sakit time2 wa nga byk keje . wa penat la weyy layan mood lu . sakit lu taw tak . takan lu nak wa telan pain killer jep . cian la kat pinggang , t die lak gagal befungi .

heyy ! tok lu lak . wa tawu wa nye mulut ni selalu lepas . tapi lu , lu nak cakap LIKE tok owg2 yang suke cakap itot sedap mulot , lu tak pk ke yang lu tu sebenanye begitu ? semestinye tak sedar , lu bukan de perasaan pon kan ? tapi lex2 la baii , lu bajek tenang jep kan . padahal wa tawu lu tahan malu . haa !! sape tataw kes lu ? ramai la weyy . so . pk2 la lu ye .

the best u ever had is juz a memory
so go and fak ur self wit ur ass

mimpi die lagi

haiyaa . sudah bape kali la sehh . last nite , again . but kinda different . i talked to him , i saw his little girl . such a lovely girl . look juz like her daddy .

not too much of conversation . emm , ape sal huh ? aku ni kene ubat gune2 kep ? adehh . sampai bile nak handle bende ni ? im not bored , im juz get tired to it . reality ? fate ? . aren't you guy tired playing with me ? coz i do .

so plz stop it . i cant bare facing 'stuff' that hurts me a lot . emotionally ! plzzz ;(

pagi !

segarr nye pagi ni . subuh2 aku da bgn . tp pas2 aku tito alik . haa . becoz of a dream . cant 'classified' as sweet dream or a nightmare .

fisrt ; im having a relationship with bboy . but it seems like it was in real life . sudden my grandma and mom insist me to marry someone that i dont even know his name . everyone says he was a great choice for me . yuckkkss . am i the only one who really understand the word 'love' here ?

sabtu ; hari 2 ingt kan tarikh nikah . i waited for one whole day but nothings happened . its actually a funny thing . i did not agree but i do feel right for this .

ahad ; haa . time nikah . but no preparation , no wedding dress , no make up . n then ! tuttt i woke up . what a relieve . i juz a dream . thank god , i didn't see who's my groom , even his name . klu aku tawu sape . haiyaa , mampus la aku dok kenang2 mimpi 2 .

pas2 aku msg bf aku . cite la pasal mimpi
nak tawu ape die cakap ;
2la lain kali sebelum tito basuh kaki , bace doa. ini tidak , main landing jep.
haa ;)

hari yang menyenangkan

weeyy keje wa ciap baii ! la sgt . but still tak kene marah pon . kan aku da cakap . tayah susah2 nk ciap kan , tade nye die marah . muahahahahah .

n im still hepy , no fighting . juz hepy thought . huh not so hepy thought la . im trying to control my emotions , if im mad , not gonna show . if im hepy , i will try to tell everyone .

last few days had been a confusing day , the 'ex's . im thinking more about my past n sudden i cant remember my present . i do cried , seeing the picture of him n his wife . im mad , but i dont know why . come on ed , he's someone's husband . dah tade penting nye sume kisah2 lame 2 .

u know what , first love do exist . n eternal love too .

azrin ; u are my fisrt love . my love that i cant never forget . but now ,
maybe im juz in love with the 'memory'
so do make urself a happy life with her
abd rashid ; i do love youu , deeply emotionally
so im gonna make u happy as much as i do with youu

GOD ; i pray every night and day ,
jike die jodoh ku , kaw dekat dekatkan la
jike sebalik nye , kaw jauh jauh kan la
amin ya rabballalamin

mail ; wish you were here ;(

alasan lagi

saye nak tawu la nape ;

klu saye yang cal , mesty perbualan kite tak semesra bile awak yang cal saye
cakap cam nak tanak
tak fokus pon ape yang saye cakap
n tade mesra2 or manje2 bile nak letak pone

kekadang saye tak faham pangai awak
tapi dah name pon pangai awak
so terpakse la diam dan terima
;(