gud luck to you sayangg

boyfrend aku wat blog . haha . ape mimpi die ntah , tibetibe je . cam tawu je nk tulis ape . nk tulis puisi ke sayangg ?

pape pon , gudluck la k tok penulisan2 awak tue . saye akan jadi pengikut yang setia . muaah !

plz take away this pain

seriously im juz sick thinking bout tis . mom , im tired . i need youu . i dont wanna cry infront of them . they sure will laugh at me . i dont want any of this . i juz want to be there at home with u , and our family . coz u guys are the only one that understand me the most .

i hate them ! they always judging me . misjudged ! they donnoe me ! mom , plz take away this pain . plz take me far away from this place .

try sleeping with a broken heart

"Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart, then you can try sleeping in my bed"

Even if you are a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me

And even at the bottom of the sea
I could still hear it inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me
And all the time, you were telling me lies

So tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?
Well you could try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, own me, nobody ever shut it down like you

You are the clown, you made my body feel heaven bound
Why don’t you hold me, need me
I thought you told me you’d never leave me

Looking in the sky I could see your face
And I knew right where I fit in
Take me, make me, you know that I’ll always be in love with you
Right till the end

So tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Anybody could’ve told you right from the start it’s ‘bout to fall apart
So why not then hold on to a broken dream or just hold on to love
And I could find a way to make it, don’t hold on too tight
I’ll make it without you tonight

So tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

dedicated to the one i love
xoxo sed

i just need you to ignore me

i dont need your attention . coz i noe your intention . its fake , such a drama . u dont have to act like im so precious to you . in hell ! sympathy is the last thing i need from you . so go and fuck yourself !

i hate youu . thank youu

work work work and work !

tired ! im moving out again . mayb im more suitable living in 'nomad world' haha . since high school until now . from one place to another . ahh ! like i care .

but now im focusing more to my work ! OSHA here i come ! jeng jeng jeng

love me love me not

thanks for always there by my side . u make me cry , u make me laugh . i wont stop missing you . even if u want me to stop . maybe i dont have all the power to know how long this relationship will go on . but all i know is , i love youu . n i will always love youu

These violent delights have violent ends
And in their triumph die, like fire and powder,
Which, as they kiss, consume

it doesn't matter cause im packing plastic . and that's make my life so fucking fantastic

people do said , n even you . i hate hypocrite ! but did you ever think that you are actually among 'them' ? face the reality darl , u r that person . you juz did not realize , cause ; you are too buzy thinking of me being such hypocrite to you . rite ? i didn't say that you wrong . i am that person . n i like being that .

atleast im not the one who sending those weird 'status' . ape ? nak dapat simpati owg lain ? ohh plz . klu ye pon , pandang kiri kanan laa . owg dok gelak ade la kat kaw ! bodo .

one more , dont act like u dont care but actually you really2 do care about it . as if i dont noe ! such a pity , coz if u dont care like u said , jgn la bersuare lebih2 . sbb aku tawu kaw mmg dah sah2 terase . g la dok tepi pintu , korek idung then kire bape ramai owg yg belaku hipokrit terhadap kaw .

y i do like being such a hypocritical person ? coz no one will ever noe my dark side . im not saying that im being such an innocent gurl . no ! it juz , tok ape cerita kan keburukan diri sendiri kan ? bangga aku hisap rokok ? bangga aku si minah clubbing ? minah rempit ? wtf ! lagi pon , tak kire kite ni baek atau jahat depan owg , akan ade gak mulut2 yang bersuare . btol kan ?

jadi la DIRI SENDIRI or PLASTIC itot pada tempat nye . ;)

im losing youuu ;(

dear god , u have taken my jacob away from me . in fact too far away . that nite after receiving the call , ohh god ! what happened ? i do love him . so very much . since high school . tapi mgkin sayang ku padanya terlalu kecil di banding kan cinta mu terhadap nya . i saw him , lying there with no more heart beat . pale ! but wait ! there's a smile in your face . ur cute smile that always takes my breaths go away . i miss you . really miss u . hari tu kite jumpe kejap je kan . lepas 4 tahun tak jumpe . 2 la first n last kan ? ary 2 kaw terbaring kaku , hati aku berdetik , mail , plz wake up . plz say bye to me . plz say that u will miss me n we will meet again later . tapi 2 mustahil kan ? tp tape la . aku ttp redha dengan pemergian mu . u will always be my best friend . ;)

rest in piece . semoga tuhan mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh mu dan di tempat kan bersama owg2 yg soleh dan solehah . AL-FATIHAH

seorang anak yang di sayangi , adik yang di kasihi , sahabat yang di sanjungi

ISMAIL BIN ABD RAHIM

08.02.1989-03.12.2009

setahun ;)

truely loveeyouu ;)

hate u sampai mati !

btol tak tipu !

awak kawan kite

tenks aby! really love u . byk2 kawan kaw jep la yg bole aku ngadu . pe aku cakap sume kaw masuk . walaupon kaw ni blur ckit . hahaha

kusut pk prob ni . naseb jugak kaw ade n kaw faham . doa2 la sume 2 tak tejadi ea . bukan tanak cume tak sanggup and lom sampai mase nye lagi .

tulah sape suwoh wat jahat ! kan da susah ! padan muke aku

weird dreams

dalam rumah . waktu musim perayaan , raye kot . for one whole day , i've been fighting with my dad , my sis , n abviously my mom . paling teruk ngan ibu . mule2 gado ngan adek sal berebut makanan , maki2 depan ayah , then ayah marah sbb aku gado gne ayat yg tak sepatot nye ngan adek . then aku lari g umah sebelah . happends 2 be my grandma house(weird) jauh kot umah aku ngan nenek . then with my mom . coz aku tegur die , die wat dek jep .

dari si2 la aku gado besa ngan ibu . masing2 tggi suare . walaupon kat depan sedara mara . then i cried . my mom too .

sudden i woke up ; kat dalam bilik n atas katil rupenye . but ! there's a tears in my eyes . weird huh ? dalam mimpi kite menages , takan kat realiti pon ade effect?

pelik kan ? tp itu lah mimpi aku . masuk ni da 2x aku dapat mumpi camni . dalam hidup aku , aku kenali owg 2 melalui mimpi . aku dapat sesuatu kabar pon dalam mimpi .

cam ri2 , aku mimpi ex aku tiap2 malam , tok mase semggu . die jmpe aku tapi die tanak cakap pape . die senyum , die usap dahi aku . ibu suwoh jumpe die . mane tawu die ade pape nk cakap ke . tp aku gelak jep . last2 ary 2 , aku dapat tawu die kawen dah . sbb 2 kot aku mimpi jep sal die . haha

mimpi mainan tidur , tp tak sume . rasul pon selalu dapat sesuatu dr mimpi . cme terpulang la pada kite n bagaimana aty kite menerimanye ;)

surat cinta

pernah tepikir ttg kematian ?

tik tok tik tok
jam bedetik hati terdetik
dup dap dup dap

kaw berdiri jauh di sudut itu
tp telihat sangat dekat , sangat jelas
merenung tepat memegang belati tajam
siapa kaw ?
apa kemahuan mu ?

tutttt ; kering idea !

the proposal

cuti yang indah . heaven weekend ! why ? i always dream of having a man in my life . a real man , my future husband la dodol . ;) but in the age of 20 . is it too early to think about it ? like i cares ! alaa . berangan , tak salah pe ?

pagi 2 nga sarapan roti canai , kat lorong kg melayu , kari die sedap ;) sudden my dear mention about the proposal . hehe . and the ring . he asked me whether i want a ring for our engagement or a necklace . i laugh but dalam aty jep la . pas2 pjg la borak nye . ade sampai telagah gak , pasal mjlis . tp last2 masing2 tegelak . sbb nye ; awal sangat bincang sal kawen .

sbenanye best taw . sbb ape ? kite tawu owg 2 siyes ngan kite . syukur alhamdulillah ;) cume tade la berharap tggi . doa jep la mengiringi . amin !







tp dr gembira 2 ade tak hepy . im not talkilng to my mom for 1 months already . aiyoo . sekse taw . my mom ni len cam la pangai die . pelik . tak cam mak kowg . da tue pon majuk ag . buruk lak 2 . penin !

bright shiny day

panas ! n im hot ! aiyoo . tekak kering . pale da bergegar . cam monorel nga bejalan . tutt tutt . eh jap . monorel ade bunyi cam2 kep ? haha .

but im stil hot . wish mantin was jb . ujan jep . sejuk jep . da cam udang panggang rase nye . huh!time2 acani baru nk nk pk jb 2 bes kan ? murtad jb tol . haha !

a night to remember

syg!.bboy rindu la kat ggurl.np ek?.ehm.xpela bboy nk tito ni.love u.cinta u.miss u.muahh!. ( 6:01 a.m )
oke.sweet dreams syg.muahh.i love u ( 4:09 a.m )

tis is the words that keep my sleep with sweet dreams and my day with a bright smile. knowing him may be the best things that happen in my life. u would think , ofcoz u would say that , his your bf. what else could u feel about him ? yes , i do admit it . but he's not even my type of guy , bile owg tnye , is he really the one u dream of? i will laugh . haha. jauh langit dari bumi .

im kinda gurl who likes advanture . klu kite dapat ape yg kite suke jep , tak bes la kan ? kadang2 yg berbeze tulah cabarannye . yeah! so many or to many obstacle in our advanture . sometimes i do give up. damn tired . but my mom always said , the hardest one is the bestiest ( metafora ) for u . he was juz like ur father . hehe . that makes me wanna love him more n more .

p/s ; go get what u love the most . coz when u try , no matter u lose or win , its worth fighting for . believe me . i did try !

si bodo yang malang

nape die bodoh ? kenape die malang ? sbb die taleh berfikir . sbb die ade jalan . tp tataw nk gune kan . ape la . conclusion ade depan mate nape mesty nk complicated kan persoalan yg sedie senang . lagi nk bermadah puisi so damn romantik la konon . wadepak man .

konon nk beritahu sume owg la yg u r so fucker hot . klu hot pon ape aku kesah kan ? tp emm , baek la kaw pk belajar kep . mak ayah kep . kan lagi afdal . lagi berkat hidup kaw ? btol tak ?

p/s ; words tat actually means for me . ;(

bom atom bakal bergegar dalam pale otak !

arrgghh! tulun tulun . pe nak jadi aku ni . im in rush . for dunnoe for wat ? exam sucks, pointer sucker. aiyoo. cam nk g hentak2 jep pale kat dinding . kasi TING TONG !

kerana dia

today kite start dengan jiwang2 punye feelin . hehe . nak cite ape ? kesah si monyet yang comel dan sangat di sayangi . ;) die garang juge , kurus jep . tak ckop makan ? tidak . cume kadar metabolisme badan die tinggi . so ape die makan akan cepat di hadam . sbb 2 die kurus . haha . pas makan mesty yak . sebb 2 die kudut jep .

sekali pandang nampak agak liar . sape berani dekat ? aku jep . sebab ape ? sebab aku jep berani tok jinak kan die . pada mate aku . die comel . manis jep . mate die sepet . paling bes bile baru bgn tito . huh ! cakap sal tito , susah taw nak kejut die bangun tito . selalu jep aku kene marah ngan die .walau cam2 , kku nak tawu . die la makhluk yang paling manje , makan nak suap . tidur nak dodoi . pegi mane2 pon nak aku teman . klu sakit . lagi la . tambah2 manje die .

nape aku sayang die ? sbb die matang . die tabah . walau pon tak ramai tawu kisah hidup die . o betape buruk nye perkara yg pernah berlaku dalam hidup die . aku tawu die selalu sedeh walau pon die kerap ketawe . sudah dewase pon masih lagi punye masalah dan persoalan yang same . gugup juge jantung aku pagi itu bile mendengar bunyi 'kesedihan' dari die .

walau acane pon . kaw ttp monyet yang aku sayang . tak kesah ape owg pk sal kaw . tak kesah pe owg nak tuduh kaw . im still gonna be ur best ggurl ever ! coz u r the one i love the most now .

p/s ; monyet itu sekadar perumpamaan . aku tak bela monyet pon . haha ;)

perkenalan

well , salam perkenalan kepada diri aku sendiri ;) . bercerita ? an options to release sometg inside ur heart. if u cant say it , why not write it down . simple as a b c .

tapi ape yang aku tulis adalah ape yang aku rase . kaw nak terase ? dulik ape aku . haha . tak susah kan kaw pon. let me be myself here. so juz wait for another post of my writing ;)