mimpi die lagi

haiyaa . sudah bape kali la sehh . last nite , again . but kinda different . i talked to him , i saw his little girl . such a lovely girl . look juz like her daddy .

not too much of conversation . emm , ape sal huh ? aku ni kene ubat gune2 kep ? adehh . sampai bile nak handle bende ni ? im not bored , im juz get tired to it . reality ? fate ? . aren't you guy tired playing with me ? coz i do .

so plz stop it . i cant bare facing 'stuff' that hurts me a lot . emotionally ! plzzz ;(

pagi !

segarr nye pagi ni . subuh2 aku da bgn . tp pas2 aku tito alik . haa . becoz of a dream . cant 'classified' as sweet dream or a nightmare .

fisrt ; im having a relationship with bboy . but it seems like it was in real life . sudden my grandma and mom insist me to marry someone that i dont even know his name . everyone says he was a great choice for me . yuckkkss . am i the only one who really understand the word 'love' here ?

sabtu ; hari 2 ingt kan tarikh nikah . i waited for one whole day but nothings happened . its actually a funny thing . i did not agree but i do feel right for this .

ahad ; haa . time nikah . but no preparation , no wedding dress , no make up . n then ! tuttt i woke up . what a relieve . i juz a dream . thank god , i didn't see who's my groom , even his name . klu aku tawu sape . haiyaa , mampus la aku dok kenang2 mimpi 2 .

pas2 aku msg bf aku . cite la pasal mimpi
nak tawu ape die cakap ;
2la lain kali sebelum tito basuh kaki , bace doa. ini tidak , main landing jep.
haa ;)

hari yang menyenangkan

weeyy keje wa ciap baii ! la sgt . but still tak kene marah pon . kan aku da cakap . tayah susah2 nk ciap kan , tade nye die marah . muahahahahah .

n im still hepy , no fighting . juz hepy thought . huh not so hepy thought la . im trying to control my emotions , if im mad , not gonna show . if im hepy , i will try to tell everyone .

last few days had been a confusing day , the 'ex's . im thinking more about my past n sudden i cant remember my present . i do cried , seeing the picture of him n his wife . im mad , but i dont know why . come on ed , he's someone's husband . dah tade penting nye sume kisah2 lame 2 .

u know what , first love do exist . n eternal love too .

azrin ; u are my fisrt love . my love that i cant never forget . but now ,
maybe im juz in love with the 'memory'
so do make urself a happy life with her
abd rashid ; i do love youu , deeply emotionally
so im gonna make u happy as much as i do with youu

GOD ; i pray every night and day ,
jike die jodoh ku , kaw dekat dekatkan la
jike sebalik nye , kaw jauh jauh kan la
amin ya rabballalamin

mail ; wish you were here ;(

alasan lagi

saye nak tawu la nape ;

klu saye yang cal , mesty perbualan kite tak semesra bile awak yang cal saye
cakap cam nak tanak
tak fokus pon ape yang saye cakap
n tade mesra2 or manje2 bile nak letak pone

kekadang saye tak faham pangai awak
tapi dah name pon pangai awak
so terpakse la diam dan terima
;(

go ed go !

come on ed . mereke sudah bahagia . so go and find ur own happiness !

true ; saying sorry maybe juz not enough . it takes the whole life , mayb . but sometimes hidup kite takan same ngan ape yg kite da rancang .

so now ; im sorry sayang . for lying to ur face , secretly hiding my feelings towards him . his my past , n he already got his future . but thanks , thanks for always accepting my past .

ibu cakap ; doa selalu tok aku . klu ade jodoh , dekat dekatkan la , klu tade ; jauh jauh kan la . thanks mom . from now , im gonna fight for my love . i learn his weakness , jadi harus lah belajar menerima nye . insyaallah , kami akan same2 berusaha .

i love youu
;)

sakitnyeee

lame tak update blog . lame tak berceritakn ?

my heart was deeply in pain . gosh ! juz wish can get rid those feeling .

sayang , nape kite camni ? nape asyik gaduh sebb bnde yang same ? tiap ary camni kan ? sampai bile ? u once said , do keep fighting until both of us '-------' cant bare to say that word .

hear me plzz ;
i love youu i do
miss youu every second every breath
tapi ...
kdg2 cinta tak ckop tok 1perhubungan
kite tade perbualan
kite tade perbincangan
aku tak bersuare
kaw ? takan bertnye
plzz
plzz try to understand me better
aku tak pandai nak sorok perasaan
bile aku marah , aku marah
bile aku hepy , kaw tawu kan sume 2?

let go if u think it wont get youu nything
:'(