u wanna GAME ? i give u game . it isnt OVER yet !

aku tawu aku salah . aku tawu gurauan aku sangat2 melampau . 2 hak kaw tok marah mengamuk . dan what ? kaw ngan aku da tade kene mgene ? kaw yang nak cam2 kan ? OK . aku terima . aku akan jalani ape yang kaw mule kan . kaw tak kenal aku lagi ? fine .

ye aty aku menangis . sakit . tu yang kaw nak tawu kan ? tapi kali ni air mata aku takan mengalir lagi . aku da berusaha tok bercakap ngan kaw . tapi kaw tak penah nk bagi peluang . dan terus dgn kata kasar yang selama ni kaw tak pernah keluar kan . permainan ape yang kaw nak aku main ? kaw cakap dah GAME OVER ? then wat la cam btol2 game over . bia aku MERANA . kaw suke kan ?

dan sekarang . dipersilakan la pertontonkan hidup aku tanpa kaw . aku takan cakap ia hebat , atau pun merana . sbb aku tak pernah terpk kan pon sume 2 . janji kaw ? janji aku ? simpan jep la dalam poket . dan mulai ari ni . i will play in ur game . n looks who's gonna WIN !

si anak yatim

start my day wit ; kepenatan yang teramat la sangat . n kelakar . td g la present , haa . terpancul mulut aku g cakp konsep TROJAN . haa . tergelak2 , mampus kene hambur . sebenanye konsep soul of nature , tp ntah ek . pasal tatw nk cakap ape . mula2 da cakap kat haz , haz da gelak dlu . ape la nasib . nk wat acane . saye bukan dak D . mane la pandai nk pk design . sedehh kan ? kekdang jeles nenok kawan yg lain . jeles bukan dengki , tp kenape la kite taleh pk cam dowg . emm . ;(

pas kelas g makan kat a&w . sory la sir fariq TERponteng kelas sir lak . nga sedap2 makan , terpndang la kat meje bulat . budak umor dalam 7,8 tahun . pakai songkok . simpang beg , comel n chubby . sedang asyik dok tulis2 . dalam aty da agak , mesty nk minx derma . n bile die dtg depan , alalala comel nye pipi die , 'saye anak yatim , bole minx derma' time 2 tuhan je la tawu hati ni. bayang kan nga sedap2 mom buger , otak cam2 soklan pk , dak ni da makan ke , tak penat ke . n camne anak2 yatim yg lain ? dowg dapat makan ke . time 2 gak aku nagis . nga makan ni , idung da merah . teringat adek2 kat umah . teringat permintaan kite kat mak ayah . dowg ? nk minx kat sape ?

n pk2 alik . nape la budak sekecil 2 di suwoh minx derma . atleast pk la inisiatif lain . pity him , kecik2 da tade mak ayah .

ya allah , kaw lindungi anak2 yatim sedunia .
kaw berkati la mereke , dan ampukan dosa2 mereke
kaw tenang kan hati dan perasaan mereke
moga2 mereke tabah menjalani hidup ni .
AMIN !

yg mgkin mmbace , amin kan ye

wa da cakap kan

siyes pale da sakit sangat . wa da cakap kan wahai pale . lu tlg la jgn sakit time2 wa nga byk keje . wa penat la weyy layan mood lu . sakit lu taw tak . takan lu nak wa telan pain killer jep . cian la kat pinggang , t die lak gagal befungi .

heyy ! tok lu lak . wa tawu wa nye mulut ni selalu lepas . tapi lu , lu nak cakap LIKE tok owg2 yang suke cakap itot sedap mulot , lu tak pk ke yang lu tu sebenanye begitu ? semestinye tak sedar , lu bukan de perasaan pon kan ? tapi lex2 la baii , lu bajek tenang jep kan . padahal wa tawu lu tahan malu . haa !! sape tataw kes lu ? ramai la weyy . so . pk2 la lu ye .

the best u ever had is juz a memory
so go and fak ur self wit ur ass

mimpi die lagi

haiyaa . sudah bape kali la sehh . last nite , again . but kinda different . i talked to him , i saw his little girl . such a lovely girl . look juz like her daddy .

not too much of conversation . emm , ape sal huh ? aku ni kene ubat gune2 kep ? adehh . sampai bile nak handle bende ni ? im not bored , im juz get tired to it . reality ? fate ? . aren't you guy tired playing with me ? coz i do .

so plz stop it . i cant bare facing 'stuff' that hurts me a lot . emotionally ! plzzz ;(

pagi !

segarr nye pagi ni . subuh2 aku da bgn . tp pas2 aku tito alik . haa . becoz of a dream . cant 'classified' as sweet dream or a nightmare .

fisrt ; im having a relationship with bboy . but it seems like it was in real life . sudden my grandma and mom insist me to marry someone that i dont even know his name . everyone says he was a great choice for me . yuckkkss . am i the only one who really understand the word 'love' here ?

sabtu ; hari 2 ingt kan tarikh nikah . i waited for one whole day but nothings happened . its actually a funny thing . i did not agree but i do feel right for this .

ahad ; haa . time nikah . but no preparation , no wedding dress , no make up . n then ! tuttt i woke up . what a relieve . i juz a dream . thank god , i didn't see who's my groom , even his name . klu aku tawu sape . haiyaa , mampus la aku dok kenang2 mimpi 2 .

pas2 aku msg bf aku . cite la pasal mimpi
nak tawu ape die cakap ;
2la lain kali sebelum tito basuh kaki , bace doa. ini tidak , main landing jep.
haa ;)

hari yang menyenangkan

weeyy keje wa ciap baii ! la sgt . but still tak kene marah pon . kan aku da cakap . tayah susah2 nk ciap kan , tade nye die marah . muahahahahah .

n im still hepy , no fighting . juz hepy thought . huh not so hepy thought la . im trying to control my emotions , if im mad , not gonna show . if im hepy , i will try to tell everyone .

last few days had been a confusing day , the 'ex's . im thinking more about my past n sudden i cant remember my present . i do cried , seeing the picture of him n his wife . im mad , but i dont know why . come on ed , he's someone's husband . dah tade penting nye sume kisah2 lame 2 .

u know what , first love do exist . n eternal love too .

azrin ; u are my fisrt love . my love that i cant never forget . but now ,
maybe im juz in love with the 'memory'
so do make urself a happy life with her
abd rashid ; i do love youu , deeply emotionally
so im gonna make u happy as much as i do with youu

GOD ; i pray every night and day ,
jike die jodoh ku , kaw dekat dekatkan la
jike sebalik nye , kaw jauh jauh kan la
amin ya rabballalamin

mail ; wish you were here ;(

alasan lagi

saye nak tawu la nape ;

klu saye yang cal , mesty perbualan kite tak semesra bile awak yang cal saye
cakap cam nak tanak
tak fokus pon ape yang saye cakap
n tade mesra2 or manje2 bile nak letak pone

kekadang saye tak faham pangai awak
tapi dah name pon pangai awak
so terpakse la diam dan terima
;(

go ed go !

come on ed . mereke sudah bahagia . so go and find ur own happiness !

true ; saying sorry maybe juz not enough . it takes the whole life , mayb . but sometimes hidup kite takan same ngan ape yg kite da rancang .

so now ; im sorry sayang . for lying to ur face , secretly hiding my feelings towards him . his my past , n he already got his future . but thanks , thanks for always accepting my past .

ibu cakap ; doa selalu tok aku . klu ade jodoh , dekat dekatkan la , klu tade ; jauh jauh kan la . thanks mom . from now , im gonna fight for my love . i learn his weakness , jadi harus lah belajar menerima nye . insyaallah , kami akan same2 berusaha .

i love youu
;)

sakitnyeee

lame tak update blog . lame tak berceritakn ?

my heart was deeply in pain . gosh ! juz wish can get rid those feeling .

sayang , nape kite camni ? nape asyik gaduh sebb bnde yang same ? tiap ary camni kan ? sampai bile ? u once said , do keep fighting until both of us '-------' cant bare to say that word .

hear me plzz ;
i love youu i do
miss youu every second every breath
tapi ...
kdg2 cinta tak ckop tok 1perhubungan
kite tade perbualan
kite tade perbincangan
aku tak bersuare
kaw ? takan bertnye
plzz
plzz try to understand me better
aku tak pandai nak sorok perasaan
bile aku marah , aku marah
bile aku hepy , kaw tawu kan sume 2?

let go if u think it wont get youu nything
:'(

sedang dan cube !

haa , ari ni nak try cipta rekod . 17 hours not stop dok kat studio wat keje . wahh ! hebat la weyy . gila kan . keje tak ciap2 gak .

damn home sickk ! so very2 much missing him , mommy , sista bro ! daddy ? not much , da jumpe ari 2 .

cepat la keje ciap , i wanna go home !

xoxo sed

should i ; should not

it almost one hour . i've been waiting for him to rep my msg . should i mad ? yesterday we been fighting for the same reason . im i the one to blame ? he said , keep on fighting until we break ! it that what i want ?

nope ! obviously not ! how can us be separate ? it juz not because i love you , but i need you . u r my friend , my brother , my breath . emm .......

yang aku tak faham , siapa tak faham siapa , siapa tak belajar memahami . dan siapa yang sebenarnya tak faham langsung . klu bedebat pon , 2,2 nak menag kan . maka tiada konklusi .

so i better rap up my self n call it a day . gudbye sayang . hope u'll enjoy yourself there . i miss youu

xoxo sed

hate this part of me

i been crying since i cant remember . reason ? dun really noe . i kept sms him with 'im sorry' . i dunno what im sorry for . lied to him ? keepin my thought from him ? pretend like nothing hapen ? or mayb im juz missing him too much ?

haisshh ! why is it hurt so much . its like my heart gonna poping out ! dum dam dum dam . i cant barely face it . ohh god ! should i let him go ?

how ? i juz so in love wit him ;(

liar liar burn a fire

aku sedang menipu . tapi aku tataw menipu kat sape . diri aku sendiri ? atau pada die ?

cume yang aku pasti adlah kenape aku menipu ;

menjaga hati

lebih baik simpan

kot ,

tak faham ?
aku pon same

work work work !

health safety and welfare

architectural design theory

designproject

study for exam

jeez , have to finish within these 2 n half week . damn ! presure ciot !