hate this part of me

i been crying since i cant remember . reason ? dun really noe . i kept sms him with 'im sorry' . i dunno what im sorry for . lied to him ? keepin my thought from him ? pretend like nothing hapen ? or mayb im juz missing him too much ?

haisshh ! why is it hurt so much . its like my heart gonna poping out ! dum dam dum dam . i cant barely face it . ohh god ! should i let him go ?

how ? i juz so in love wit him ;(