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perkataan ku
amarah ku
rajuk ku

bukan bermaksud aku tidak menerima kamu seadanye !

whattodo whattosayy

die cakap ;
1ary tak mengarut tak bole ke ?
jgn la manje sangat , bertempat la cikit
cakap adoiyai pon di anggap kasar ke ?
cube suare tu pelan ckit , nak pecah telinga ni dengar
no komen
entah tak tawu
mane ade marah , die yang pk bukanbukan

aku jawab ;
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(maksud nye tidak mengeluar kan suara)

die cakap lagi ;
cakap cikit je da touching

klu kowg tnye nape aku touching?
aku pon tataw
aku senang terasa
senang lagi kecik hati
kowg nk aku berubah?
kirim salam je la weyy
sampai mati pangai aku camni
so take it or leave it!
and if u one day gonna give up on me,
juz say it
i will let you go :(

serangan balas !

aku cakap
kaw balas
kaw cakap
aku balas

bidas kat dalam blog aje
tapi bile berdepan taleh lak nk cakap
nape cam2 ek ?

aku manje ?
aku yang suke cari perhatian ?
aku yang pentingkan diri sendiri ?


ye tawu
aku tamak
aku kuat cemburu
semua owg cakap camtu!
kaw , die , dowg pon same

tapi salah ke kalau aku macam tue ?

aku da cuba berubah
aku da cuba baiki
tapi
inilah diriku
inilah jiwaku
mohon maaf jika kaw tak dapat terima
xoxo ily

entah la labuu

aku tataw ape yg btol . ape yang salah . tatawtatawtatawtatawtatawtatawtataw !!!
baik tito ! cari mimpi !

sakit hati
sakit jiwe
sakit perasaan
sakitsakit sume
sekian terima kasih

kan btul aku cakap

kene 2ngu lagi .....................................................................

promise

i woke up this morning with a sudden thought . it almost eleven . n i dunno what to do this whole day . alone , again ! feel likes goin back to jb now . miss him ;(

n now it almost 4p.m . i waited infornt of my pc since i woke up . i dunno why . mayb sebab aku rase die pegang janji die . ntah , meyakinkn diri sendiri mgkin . tapi tape la . da tebiase mgkin setiap hari camni . emm .

2010

tahun baru ? ape itu ? azam ? tak pernah pasang azam pon dari dlu sampai la skunk . tp still byk yg berubah . aku , kaw , dowg sume kan ? cite pasal tahun baru , tade ape kot yg best .

cume , setahun je tggal . cepat2 kasi berambus dari cni . im sick of this place.

impian ? mgkin ade . juz wanna approve that i can only love youu , youu and only youu . sampai bile aku tataw , cume ape yg bole aku cakap , saye sayang awak sangat2 abdul rashid bin abu bakar . tade puisi , kate kate2 nk terang kan . terima kasih kerana telah memeriah kan hidup saye selama setahun ini ;)


n god , terima kasih atas nafas yg telah kaw berikan .

gud luck to you sayangg

boyfrend aku wat blog . haha . ape mimpi die ntah , tibetibe je . cam tawu je nk tulis ape . nk tulis puisi ke sayangg ?

pape pon , gudluck la k tok penulisan2 awak tue . saye akan jadi pengikut yang setia . muaah !

plz take away this pain

seriously im juz sick thinking bout tis . mom , im tired . i need youu . i dont wanna cry infront of them . they sure will laugh at me . i dont want any of this . i juz want to be there at home with u , and our family . coz u guys are the only one that understand me the most .

i hate them ! they always judging me . misjudged ! they donnoe me ! mom , plz take away this pain . plz take me far away from this place .

try sleeping with a broken heart

"Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart, then you can try sleeping in my bed"

Even if you are a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me

And even at the bottom of the sea
I could still hear it inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me
And all the time, you were telling me lies

So tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?
Well you could try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, own me, nobody ever shut it down like you

You are the clown, you made my body feel heaven bound
Why don’t you hold me, need me
I thought you told me you’d never leave me

Looking in the sky I could see your face
And I knew right where I fit in
Take me, make me, you know that I’ll always be in love with you
Right till the end

So tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Anybody could’ve told you right from the start it’s ‘bout to fall apart
So why not then hold on to a broken dream or just hold on to love
And I could find a way to make it, don’t hold on too tight
I’ll make it without you tonight

So tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

dedicated to the one i love
xoxo sed

i just need you to ignore me

i dont need your attention . coz i noe your intention . its fake , such a drama . u dont have to act like im so precious to you . in hell ! sympathy is the last thing i need from you . so go and fuck yourself !

i hate youu . thank youu

work work work and work !

tired ! im moving out again . mayb im more suitable living in 'nomad world' haha . since high school until now . from one place to another . ahh ! like i care .

but now im focusing more to my work ! OSHA here i come ! jeng jeng jeng

love me love me not

thanks for always there by my side . u make me cry , u make me laugh . i wont stop missing you . even if u want me to stop . maybe i dont have all the power to know how long this relationship will go on . but all i know is , i love youu . n i will always love youu

These violent delights have violent ends
And in their triumph die, like fire and powder,
Which, as they kiss, consume

it doesn't matter cause im packing plastic . and that's make my life so fucking fantastic

people do said , n even you . i hate hypocrite ! but did you ever think that you are actually among 'them' ? face the reality darl , u r that person . you juz did not realize , cause ; you are too buzy thinking of me being such hypocrite to you . rite ? i didn't say that you wrong . i am that person . n i like being that .

atleast im not the one who sending those weird 'status' . ape ? nak dapat simpati owg lain ? ohh plz . klu ye pon , pandang kiri kanan laa . owg dok gelak ade la kat kaw ! bodo .

one more , dont act like u dont care but actually you really2 do care about it . as if i dont noe ! such a pity , coz if u dont care like u said , jgn la bersuare lebih2 . sbb aku tawu kaw mmg dah sah2 terase . g la dok tepi pintu , korek idung then kire bape ramai owg yg belaku hipokrit terhadap kaw .

y i do like being such a hypocritical person ? coz no one will ever noe my dark side . im not saying that im being such an innocent gurl . no ! it juz , tok ape cerita kan keburukan diri sendiri kan ? bangga aku hisap rokok ? bangga aku si minah clubbing ? minah rempit ? wtf ! lagi pon , tak kire kite ni baek atau jahat depan owg , akan ade gak mulut2 yang bersuare . btol kan ?

jadi la DIRI SENDIRI or PLASTIC itot pada tempat nye . ;)

im losing youuu ;(

dear god , u have taken my jacob away from me . in fact too far away . that nite after receiving the call , ohh god ! what happened ? i do love him . so very much . since high school . tapi mgkin sayang ku padanya terlalu kecil di banding kan cinta mu terhadap nya . i saw him , lying there with no more heart beat . pale ! but wait ! there's a smile in your face . ur cute smile that always takes my breaths go away . i miss you . really miss u . hari tu kite jumpe kejap je kan . lepas 4 tahun tak jumpe . 2 la first n last kan ? ary 2 kaw terbaring kaku , hati aku berdetik , mail , plz wake up . plz say bye to me . plz say that u will miss me n we will meet again later . tapi 2 mustahil kan ? tp tape la . aku ttp redha dengan pemergian mu . u will always be my best friend . ;)

rest in piece . semoga tuhan mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh mu dan di tempat kan bersama owg2 yg soleh dan solehah . AL-FATIHAH

seorang anak yang di sayangi , adik yang di kasihi , sahabat yang di sanjungi

ISMAIL BIN ABD RAHIM

08.02.1989-03.12.2009